


"The dead soldier's silence sings our national anthem."
~ Rev. Aaron Kilbourn
"The story of America's quest for freedom



"The dead soldier's silence sings our national anthem."
~ Rev. Aaron Kilbourn
"The story of America's quest for freedomI love this background! But it makes reading hard! And as much as I love to change the background on my blog, you can bet this one won't be here long. In fact, I've already got in mind one that I've used before. And loved. So enjoy, or not, this one while you can. It's life here is severely limited. Bahaha Have a beautiful Wednesday!!! I intend to ~
I had read of this scene but never saw it. Good 'ole YouTube! Just having a normal conversation and ~ well, you watch it.
Makes you think twice now about making sure there IS a floor for you to put your foot on next time an elevator opens for you. How many times do we just board as we're looking at someone else? Or getting something from a purse. Nope, not any more. This female will be watching the floor. I ga-run-tee you I will. Yep, yep, yep. I know it's wrong, but I laughed out loud. Did you?
A week of family and fun began Mother's Day,
(Note~Miss Elle loves hair, and tried her best
Need I say who we felt was the best?!
We stayed with Leslie, who after the recital, took us to eat
Gotta love this face. He wanted to come home with us.
We ended the week keeping Jenny's three babies
Our family has such beautiful faith, a strong abiding love

Tomorrow will make four years since the accident that claimed 77 days of our life. There was another year and a half recovering and learning a 'new normal'. Recovery continues. Trigger moments happen. With it has come secrets that my mind blocked out. The fear and pain of a hurting child. Through counseling, I am learning how to cope with not only the pain but the memories. The nightmares. The fears.
One of the good things about that day in April - and there are several - is that issues from the past have been faced. They are being dealt with. A funny thing about secrets, you hide them well and think you've pretty much buried it all - then they creep out and tickle your conscious. Today, during counseling, I wanted a safe spot. To talk about anything else. To just walk away. The tightness in my chest, the closing of the throat, the need to flee became strong. Breathe, breathe deep. Remember the Garden. I am so thankful for the Garden.
I spent the better part of fifty years being afraid. Of pretending everything was normal. One of my quirks, an OCD of mine if you will, is to always have a place in mind that I can hide. An escape through the ceiling where there's a safe world that's only known to those that fear or a bathroom vanity to crawl in. Today, in counseling, I realized that when I envision this safe zone and visualize myself using it if needed, I see, in my minds eye, a young child. That never occurred to me until today. I don't really want to know what scared that child so badly, there are enough frightening episodes I dealt with in my adult life. What I want to learn, to use, are ways in which to deal with trigger moments. I am no longer a victim. I am a survivor. Better yet, I am a child of the King. He is a Guardian and Avenger. He is my Strength.
So, tomorrow shall come and we shall once more give thanks that we have each other, that our life is blessed, and that the new normal has become our expected normal. What about you? Do you have trigger moments? Share with me. What have you overcome?
And know that He is larger and more fearful to those that have harmed us. "The LORD is my rock, my fortress, and my savior; my God is my rock, in whom I find protection. He is my shield, the power that saves me, and my place of safety." Ps 18:2
Noah does not like to have his picture taken.
Way, way back in the late, late 70's I had the privilege of looking through a chain length fence into the Air Force Graveyard at Davis-Monthan AFB. I remember to this day how sad my heart became as I looked at rows of hundreds and thousands of decommissioned aircraft, and it felt a bit sadder when I saw the B-29's. You see, along with the faster flying ones, the heavier ones, this plane held a fascination for me. The Enola Gay was, is, a B-29. A B-29 that flew us into history. A flight that changed the world. My world. Your world.
My mother made us this memorable Easter bunny cake each and every year when I was growing up, and of course, I made it for Jenny. This weekend I shall take the cakes and decorations over to Jenny's and let Noah and Ian help me put the cake together! I am so excited to be sharing this tradition with my grandbabies. Here are some ideas from one of my favorite cooking blogs, Bakerella ~ click on any of the photos to go to the recipes!
Have a blessed Easter weekend ~
Aren't these the prettiest pastel shades?! John came in today with some fresh eggs given to him by Mike Chastain. Mike has chickens and these are the eggs from (and forgive me if I misspell this!) Banty hens. Mike says that when boiled gently the colors will deepen and become even prettier than they are now! We plan to take these to Ian & Noah when we go to their home for lunch. Mike also sent a dozen eggs from his 'other' hens and they are deep shades of browns, creams, and beiges. I have never seen colors this varied and natural as I have with these. Just had to share them with you! Have a blessed weekend ~
Holding the daffodils nicely,